second post in as many days.

Oh how long its been

Take my hand, follow my lead, just dont be shy and dance with me and i will show you the stars.

Ahoy hoy.
i havnt written on this in a while so yeah, im sorry all my dedicated fans *cough*. but seriously if you read this and its because you are randomly checking for updates you really need to reconsider your priorities because we've bascially quit all blogging activities.

But yes we cant do much about that can we. now all i can do is jot down my life to you in a written format which allow me to access potential life options. Making decisions is so hard though, i always used to think the poeple who complained about there age were just being obnoxious but now that im growing older i understand and know for sure that what ive been thinking is on the right track.

im 19 in what, fifteen days and i have nothing to prove for it. ive accomplished nothing, i know nothing, im still that little brat who wants everything they cant have. when i was younger i just wanted to be older, i thought maybe as i grow older ill grow taller and smarter like the streotypical teenagers played by twenty-what year olds in dramas like the OC and GG. but life is cruel and reality does hit you hard on the face. im not planning on even celebrating my 19th, i just want to milk some presents, some attention and then potentially bourbon myself into submission to 'celebrate'.

i will miss my teenage years and think back and reminisce. i mean they havnt been bad but they havnt been spectacular, i will always thnk back on the good times ive had at school which basically dominated every memory ive had since i was 7, even though the memories are hazy. but im glad i did grow up a little bit. otherwise i might still think 'playing with bees' would not result in have swollen hands. *ahhh good times*.

but thats just me putting in my '2 cents'
and thats just me using a stupid 'cliche' i dont even understand.

anywho thats it for me.
xo xo
-gossip girl