When it all comes around.

"if our love was a fairytale, i would charge in rescue you"


i wasnt planning on blogging tonight, but i have nothing better to do than to reflect on the day and what i've accomplished. thinking about it now, it's not one the the smartest things that i've ever done, considering i have accomplished nothing, nutta, zip , bollocks and life is great because of it.

People may look down upon a life where you dont have any cares in the world but what lays ahead in your path, but why should i care about what others think? i should look above my insecurities and my judging adoring crowd and just do whatever i feel like doing regardless of exspectations from anyone. But if only i had the balls for that type of behaviour, im still stuck and afraid, trying to conform to the social norm, trying to fufil exspectations set down on me by the people that spawned me. At least i'm currently happy with my life, even though i seem to paint a weary, bleek mental image, its just one of my ways to stay positive. if you could call this a positive post.

I dont know why i write in this blog, but i want to be honest on it. The truth hurts so why would i want to cake life over with lies on something which is supposed to be the way in which i vent my emotions . Makes you wonder doesn't it? Could i actually be this cynical in real life? or is this kid attention seeking again?or does this kid need help? Could be a combination but whatever, make your own mind up because i couldnt tell you which of the three it is.

I'm ranting again. blah blah blah..

all i did was chillout with friends today and talk about meaningless nothings. which is a great way to pass a saturday. it made me realise, although i do want someone in my life, i dont need anything else to change to remain content. i have friends that look out for me more than i do for myself. today only emphasized why i know i hang out with the right people. i still smell like chlorine and/or my own sweat sauce, im still smiling from the stupid conversation we had, about the devil being gay, steak sauce and a certain friends love life disaster. I have the biggest smile atm, remembering a stupid viet fighting movie cover we saw and mason's impression of what the movie would be like. im still wondering why people forgive me for being a jerk, only to conclude that it is because they are bigger men than i am, who would rather forgive than let pride gnaw at them.

shrugs. i cud be over thinking or thinking irratrionally, but whatever. give praise when praise is deserved. i spent to much time on this post and i should really try to get some sleep. i believe i have an early morning tomorrow. if u read this when i intend you to.

Say hello to your mums for me =]
ex oh ex oh
-Dangnam Van Quang Tran

To Blog or Not to Blog...

That is the question...with the increasing number of new blogs being created I was caught upon the constant batter of people talking about their blogs and other peoples blog on a daily basis. I chose initially not to create a blog due to my precedented experience of creating a blog, in actuality it was more a self-centered website dedicated to my stylised ranting similar to that of the internet satirist Maddox and also an amplifier for my shy personality as I felt the online forum was a strong shield against social critisim. I could say what I would not dare to say in person and spend time to be witty. However this form of free expression was soon forgotten as I found other ways to pre-occupy my time on this planet such as MMORPG's like for example Maple Story, maintenance was also becoming an annoyance rather than an enjoyment with the rate of incoming homework increasing exponentially as the years went on. Now with university study becoming twice as hard as high school I find little time to immerse hours of "internet surfing" and so have limited myself to facebook and MSN as my forms of communication and entertainment and now this blog.

I thank Dangnam for letting me use his because it relieves the responsibility of maintaining the blog and as I am lazy all I want to do is post and nothing else. I hope this will also not only express myself, but improve and exapnd my vocabulary, grammar and cultural and political view of the world as I seem to have lost that because of my post-high school lifestyle. There's less motivationand enforcement to keep these interests and skills.I have started saving my writing on notepad (I cbf installing microsoft office) at this point lol as I know the frustrationg and torture of posting and realising it has not posted because the page did not load or that your internet has disconnected. I'm not going to embrace the stigma of having to sound like a univeristy literature professor in my blogs and talk about meaningful random bullshit. I'm simply going to speak my mind on what ever issues I have, whenever I feel like it...

Well uni lifes been pretty cruisy for some reason I'm caring less about my grades than I should even though I'm failing 2 of my 3 subjects at the moment, the return of my stats test for 1020 was a real kick in the groin as I thought i did well in it (2/10) which plummets my overall average way down. In all honesty I'm skipping most of my lectures even though I'm only doing 3 units this semester because I dropped my commerce unit (FA) and decided to just engineering show my lack of focus and motivation. At the end of year 12 it was like "wooo..i got into uni I've proven my point to my parents" there's really no motivation left to do study. If I could I woulda just gotten a job, focus on music and a fun life and die, but no society's a bitch and likes to make expectations and this thing called money which makes life so much harder. So ye...I'm stuck with spending 4 years of my life at uni to reach an unforseen" predicted" promise of earning 100 grand a year. But hey, I really like the uni atmosphere its so laid back noones gonna chase after you if you don't go to class or fail a test (except my mum >.< backs ="]">

Speaking of Joseph he's become quite a good friend in the short time we've know each other, my first impressions of him were quite judgemental in the fact that he was quite outspoken
and on occasions had an inept ability to speak the unthinkable. However besides this we're really compatible and I actually enjoy his company in a totally non-homosexual way. He's made
me literally LOL like the time when we went to GENG tute to get the assignment sheet and then legged it for no apparent reason leaving behind a dumb-founded tutor. Another new edition
to my friendship group would have to be Dangnam, if you get past the gay tendencies that go a bit too far sometimes and the dickish ridiculing then you get a genuinely nice guy to talk
to. He projects himself as the kind of person you cant ell anything too and I trust him alot for some reason more than most people. I'm glad I have most my JSR friends at UWA because
without them I think itd be harder for me to meet new people, without them It woulda been harder for me to build the new relationships I've had with people. I feel sorry for William though
cuz he's at curtin, but he says he's doing fine because the "potential" there is higher.

I find it quite intriguing finding a "legal" drug store outside the ref in the local guild village on tuesday arvo and under josephs leadership me, him, liz and kevin went over for a closer
inspection. What we found was an array of different little plastic bags with capsules and medicine containers of tablets with obscurely coloured writing and names such as "G-bomb" (a
concentrated gaurana tablet apparently to keep you up for studying). I couldn't take the guy seriously after 5 mins of talking about a tablet which was a "purer" form of ecstasy acheived
by taking out a bullshit named chemical compound out of the illicit substance and putting it in tablet form to sell to gullable, sheltered freshers who want to try something new, without
the consequences. So we left for the northbridge to go eat waffles which has become a tradition because of half-price tuesdays. Witht he introduction of street fighter 4 to potblack I
think we'll be visiting there more often now...

Well I went to watch star trek today with dn, scott and mason after dn texted me in the middle of doing my wileplus assignment saying we should go watch to celebrate him getting a job
as a sales consultant at optus. I find it hilarious that he's pay is based only on comissions. Anyways I know your all thinking, ewww star trek (as quoted by helen), but it actually turned
out to be a decent movie. I mean when I first saw the advertisement for it I was thought it was going to be a good sci-fi movie until I realised it was star trek and fell into the
pre-judgemental criticism. Upon entering the cinema scott pointed the awfully large number of middle aged people who fullfilled the stereotypical enveloped fanatic. I found it quite weird
that they all chuckled simultaneously at obvious references and cliches of the original series and also at dangnams loud abrupt laughter that broke the dead silence on 3 occasions. He got
told off by some fat guy who took up two seats lol. Although what he was laughing at I must admit was quite amusing, the eyebrows and bowl cut of Mr spock played by the guy who
played sylar in heroes. It was a good movie, it had an interesting story-line that kept me watching and wanting to find out more, suttle witty humor and the execution of the action
sequences was quite entertaining. Overall if you get past the nerdish stigma and cultural ridicule of the star trek sub-culture and take an un-bias approach to the movie then it's a good
movie, not great but entertaining. On a note, if you go into the movie with certain negative expectations of course your going to end up hating it. On a random side-note I love how
greater-union gives you self-service for the frozen coke machine, I usually abuse it ;)

Well that's it I'm all blogged out, thank you for your time if you've gotten up to this point and sorry for the essay length post. I felt the need to catch up to dangnam and joseph =] Helen
actually coerced me into writing this as she was sick of me ranting to her all the time and I actually like expressing myself in this form. Because I think alot and this is a good way to
evaluate and reflect upon my thoughts on things. Anyways until next time...

Andrew Tran aka Trandrew

P.S i had to write the last 2 paragraphs again =.=' RAGEEE because I edited it and accidentally deleted half of the original post. I'm not liking this updated post as I feel it doesn;t capture
the feel of the original one. Afterall writing things the second time around is quite annoying and I'm lazy. I'm feeling that feeling again about the torture of not saving as mentioned in the
2nd paragraph >.<

Oh wednesday how i hate thou

"It's early in the morning, and my heart is feeling lonely"

Yes, it is early in the morning, but my heart isnt feeling lonely, more like its feeling tired and beaten up as it is strung onto the cart which is my life and dragged along unwillingly. This represents my steady and unhealthy breakfast consisting of slamming down 2 red bulls every morning to sustain my much needed energy from only 6 hours of sleep every weekday. worth it though.. i got lvl 15 last night.

it was 8:13 when i started writing this post. too early in the morning for coherent thought, perfect grammar and correct spelling. only spell check could begin to understand how bad my typing is while writing this blog, although sometimes ironically it doesntt.

Wednesday is the only day of the week i intend to maintain my appointment with university, it is the day where all my major pracs and lectures are sprawled out dejectedly over a tiresome 13 hour period. an 8 o clock start and a 9pm finish oh joy. but so worth it for my 6 day weekend *thumbs up*

its not all bad though, wednesday is actually one of my better days of the week surprisingly. i spend most of the day with some of my homeboys from jsr. who are the bread and butter of why i am the way i am today. *shifts blame*. we go to pho for lunch usually and eat they usually eat che ba mao and make a big deal out of how good it is. considering they aernt viet its actually one of the highlights of the day. that sounded alot more funny and interesting in my head, but on screen it just further emphasises how sad i sometimes am.

Its also the day i go to youth, which i recommend you all to try. i actually look forward to youth every week, today is electives and we're doing flower arrangement *goodie*. should be better than beauty which i did last time, where i came out more 'beautiful' than i did when i came in, but thats a story for another time. Funny thought though, we signed dzung up for beauty this week. the thing you have to understand is. Dzung + Questioning his masculinity = hilairty
ill keep you posted if anything happens

well i think thats enuff form me.. im sorry if ive ranted.. but im terribly dellusional right now on acccount of the time. remember its still 8am.


ex oh ex oh
gossip girl

LOL

I decided to name my first post LOL. after my most favouritist  internet word.

I enjoy saying it cause it sets a chillaxing mood in all conversations. This is unless people

have mixed understandings about what it means. FOR EXAMPLE:

text:i heard ur dog died. lol (lots of love)

reply:i hate u.

Ain't that awkward. Too bad its happened to me before. Its also pretty average if  you say it in real life and then wake up in an alleyway after some guy bottled you because he thinks your a loser.

YAY for blogs. Im sorry if my stories lead no where and tend to be cut short because i have a more exciting story to tell. Hopefully I will get better but I'm still a blog virgin so don't hate me if this is prosaic for your liking.

I would also like to make it very clear that i had no part in the naming of this wonderful blog. and agree that it is somewhat on the homosexual side of life.

Thats about it for tonight. I'll just end off with a palindrome. Not really i just haven't seen anyone else use the word "palindrome" in a blog before, thought i might try it out. Really not as exciting as i thought it would be.

Equal sign, close bracket.

God bless

Joseph Pham  

The first post

So.. i've been peer pressured into writing a blog. Seemed to be a good idea at the time.
Hopefully it doesn't remain as dull and straight forward as this first post will be.
I've also enlisted the help of my Dearest Friend Joseph. When i say enlist i mean i peer pressured. He should help to spice up my unbelieavblely boring recount of what can only be described as my hole of a life. Hopefully his retelling of our stories will be alot less mellodramatic than mine.

Also, im sorry if we post on the same day and the events we describe are retold twice. maybe it will help depict a better image in your minds if it came from 2 different points of view or maybe it will make you want to put bullets in your head while preparing some sort of noose, if it ever comes to that please feel free to click the cross at the top right of the screen. k thx.

maybe no one will ever read our blog, and i seem to be completely fine with that. the blog is for us to vent and find isolation in reflection of the good and bad things that have happened to us. Judge us all you want.. we dont care, because we've made out peace with what we are.

=D hope you enjoy
K ThX BYE *asian pose*
-Dangnam Tran