Everything i've worked for when i changed is gone.

'it was a moment of weakness, but you should've said no, you should have gone home, you should have thought twice before you let it all go, you should've had me at the back of your mind, you should've said no and you might still have me'

what can i say to change what has happened.
im reverting to the life style i worked so hard to stay out of, everything i've worked for has come crashing down around me and i dont know what to do. i cant seem to pick myself up and bounce back. once its all said and done i cant do anything about it and must take responsibility.

so what happens now? i start going back into bad habits and cry because of it. i cant look anyone in the eyes anymore because of the shame. pretty sure im gonna live in my house for the rest of my life and not know what the sun looks like for a while. shelter the hurt from the world and move on, regret what happened and know that i have to move on and leave all that would be hurt behind. but its hard and i feel terrible because of it, i dont know why im blogging it but yeah.

sorry for the rant.
Dang Nam Van Quang Tran - the hermit.