Bittersweet

"i know im laughing on the car ride home with you, i dont know how long its gonna take for me to feel okay, but i had the best day.. with you ... todayy"

i was meant to blog a couple of days ago because someone told me too but yeah i havnt found the time or the motivation up until now.
As for the title:
Have you ever been helpless and distraught about something that if you had prepared for would never have occured? as the time keeps ticking you keep putting it off knowing full well that unless its completed you will never stop worrying about it. up until the moment when you cant do anything because the event is due knowing full well that you had the power to see it finshed just couldnt find the extra push to convince your resolve to see its completion. it leaves you sad, worried, stressed, angry ... all characteristics of Bitter.

How about the opposite, when you have been worried about thing for so so long and you have been preparing for the worst and someone turns around and says "look here, all your hard work you've done has been well worth it, you've reaped what you've sown, all your effort has born fruit, congratulations" up until that moment its been eating at your soul, niggling at your conscience only to disappear leaving you appreciated, unburdened, joyful and fufilled. This is what i would call Sweet.

But what if you felt them both at the same time? how do you cope with the two extremes, its difficult, but knowing that you cant complain because its one of the greatest feelings in your life. knowing you may never feel the same again as well because this is one of the low points in your life. all thats left to do is sigh and move on with your life and stop dragging your feet, trying to cope with a smile :) Bittersweet: how cliche'

xo xo gossip girl